A minute but sharp pain rippled thru my heart as I read the sms. To think that these messages kept u going for the past 7 mths, all gone in a click of a button. I had hoped that we would be able to work things out. But I really don't know now. It wasn't a romance that was without its painful and uncertain moments. But at this point in time, all of that combined still wouldn't match up to the detriments of these events.

We need some time apart. We need time to think. Cause right now, i'm barely able to gasp for air. Juggling between so many things. It's just something that no one will be able to comprehend. Coaching 2 schools. going to class. Projects. Events. Research. Paper work. lesson plans. Emails. More emails. And despite all that I have to do, its still about what I didn't do, and havent done.

And Dino still sleeps the night away and wakes me up at 8, irregardless of what time i sleep, even if it was 3am.

I'm tired. I need a break. Im gonna sleep. I just wanna sleep. Can I not wake up? Then the problems will all just be gone. Yes avoidance. But I'm sleeping..